Hi Cheryl
I few days ago I read about the loss of your precious Shamrock.I am so sorry for the pain of your loss. It is so very hard to say good bye. I hope as time passes the tears will lessen and the love and beautiful memories will shine thru.
On January 3rd we lost our cat, Delilah. She was just 4 months shy of her 20th birthday. I feel like a bit of my soul is gone. She had her every 6 month wellness check a few days before Thanksgiving and was proclaimed in very good health. She had a good day on the Sunday she left us. She ate normally in the morning, then she played with one of her felt mice She curled up in her heated cat bed to nap and a couple hours later she was gone.
Our Veterinarian suspects her tiny heart gave out. We had her cremated and her ashes are in a box with the other pets we have loved and lost. One day when my husband and I are gone we will all be laid to rest together. Our son's, daughters in law and older grandkids know our wishes...
Anyway, I wanted to let you know you have been in my thoughts. I have lurked here since 1989. This is the first time I have posted.
Last week I had a friend take me to a shelter to adopt a new rescue. I was planning to adopt a kitten, but a grey and white beauty caught my eye. So she came home with me. She is about 15 months old and adorable. She gets on well with our dogs. Although I miss my tiny Delilah, Lena has quickly stolen our hearts. We live in the city so she will be an indoor cat, as both of our other cats were. I still cry everyday missing Delilah, but to me a house is not a home without cats and dogs.
Cheryl, it will get easier. My dogs are getting older. I just try not to think about it.

please know stranger in S.E. Michigan thinks of you often and hopes your pain lessens quickly. I don't think that you have a Shamrock space/hole in your heart. I think you have a big Shamrock sized ball of love there. Someone once told me we would not feel the pain of the loss so terribly if we did not share such unconditional love and a bond so damn strong.
Sending you a hug and hoping the days get easier soon...
A.Bear