Since I was 17 I been a vegan. Since I was 10 I showed signs of mental
illnesses. Well I am 25 now. The last year I been really violent and out of
control. I don't know what to do. I am thankful for my parents not calling
the police or hospital on me. I cracked my sisters door in half and it
knocked her shelf off the wall. It broke a lot of her collectibles. I am
scared. What if I hurt one of my family members? I get this power that is
uncontrollable. It's like I am a 100 times stronger and I feel no pain. Now
a lot of this has to do with my illnesses. But is there anything I am
missing in my diet that I can get to eating that will help out? Thanks for
your help.

-chad-

--
Suicide is not Chosen; It happens when Pain Exceeds Resources for Coping
with Pain.

http://www.jokerstears.com

http://www.dacruestudios.com

Chad Michael Mallett wrote:
Since I was 17 I been a vegan. Since I was 10 I showed signs of mental
illnesses. Well I am 25 now. The last year I been really violent and out of
control. I don't know what to do. I am thankful for my parents not calling
the police or hospital on me. I cracked my sisters door in half and it
knocked her shelf off the wall. It broke a lot of her collectibles. I am
scared. What if I hurt one of my family members? I get this power that is
uncontrollable. It's like I am a 100 times stronger and I feel no pain. Now
a lot of this has to do with my illnesses. But is there anything I am
missing in my diet that I can get to eating that will help out? Thanks for
your help.

Your problems may not be dietary in nature.

FWIW, I don't think usenet is the place to look for answers for this
kind of problem.

I think you will have better luck finding a answer with the aide of a
medical and/or psychological professional.

Good Luck!

Steve


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Steve's Home Page
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"The great American thought trap: It is not real
unless it can be seen on television or bought in a
shopping mall"

Chad Michael Mallett wrote:
Since I was 17 I been a vegan. Since I was 10 I showed signs of mental
illnesses. Well I am 25 now. The last year I been really violent and out of
control. I don't know what to do. I am thankful for my parents not calling
the police or hospital on me. I cracked my sisters door in half and it
knocked her shelf off the wall. It broke a lot of her collectibles. I am
scared. What if I hurt one of my family members? I get this power that is
uncontrollable. It's like I am a 100 times stronger and I feel no pain. Now
a lot of this has to do with my illnesses. But is there anything I am
missing in my diet that I can get to eating that will help out? Thanks for
your help.

Your problems may not be dietary in nature.

FWIW, I don't think usenet is the place to look for answers for this
kind of problem.

I think you will have better luck finding a answer with the aide of a
medical and/or psychological professional.

Good Luck!

Steve


--
Be A Healthy Vegan Or Vegetarian
http://www.geocities.com/beforewisdo...ealthyVeg.html

Steve's Home Page
http://www.geocities.com/beforewisdom/

"The great American thought trap: It is not real
unless it can be seen on television or bought in a
shopping mall"

"Chad Michael Mallett" wrote in message
...
Since I was 17 I been a vegan. Since I was 10 I showed signs of mental
illnesses. Well I am 25 now. The last year I been really violent and out
of
control. I don't know what to do. I am thankful for my parents not calling
the police or hospital on me. I cracked my sisters door in half and it
knocked her shelf off the wall. It broke a lot of her collectibles. I am
scared. What if I hurt one of my family members? I get this power that is
uncontrollable. It's like I am a 100 times stronger and I feel no pain.
Now
a lot of this has to do with my illnesses. But is there anything I am
missing in my diet that I can get to eating that will help out? Thanks for
your help.

-chad-

It's the radiation from your PC monitor that's causing the problem Chad
Throw it away, it's very dangerous.

--
Suicide is not Chosen; It happens when Pain Exceeds Resources for Coping
with Pain.

http://www.jokerstears.com

http://www.dacruestudios.com
"Ray" wrote in message
...

"Chad Michael Mallett" wrote in message
...
Since I was 17 I been a vegan. Since I was 10 I showed signs of mental
illnesses. Well I am 25 now. The last year I been really violent and out
of
control. I don't know what to do. I am thankful for my parents not
calling
the police or hospital on me. I cracked my sisters door in half and it
knocked her shelf off the wall. It broke a lot of her collectibles. I am
scared. What if I hurt one of my family members? I get this power that
is
uncontrollable. It's like I am a 100 times stronger and I feel no pain.
Now
a lot of this has to do with my illnesses. But is there anything I am
missing in my diet that I can get to eating that will help out? Thanks
for
your help.

-chad-

It's the radiation from your PC monitor that's causing the problem Chad
Throw it away, it's very dangerous.



Well, I see that you are very mature. You need to throw away your pc For
you taking the time to make a comment like that....well there must not be
much in your life.
-chad-

--
Suicide is not Chosen; It happens when Pain Exceeds Resources for Coping
with Pain.

http://www.jokerstears.com

http://www.dacruestudios.com
"Ray" wrote in message
...

"Chad Michael Mallett" wrote in message
...
Since I was 17 I been a vegan. Since I was 10 I showed signs of mental
illnesses. Well I am 25 now. The last year I been really violent and out
of
control. I don't know what to do. I am thankful for my parents not
calling
the police or hospital on me. I cracked my sisters door in half and it
knocked her shelf off the wall. It broke a lot of her collectibles. I am
scared. What if I hurt one of my family members? I get this power that
is
uncontrollable. It's like I am a 100 times stronger and I feel no pain.
Now
a lot of this has to do with my illnesses. But is there anything I am
missing in my diet that I can get to eating that will help out? Thanks
for
your help.

-chad-

It's the radiation from your PC monitor that's causing the problem Chad
Throw it away, it's very dangerous.



Well, I see that you are very mature. You need to throw away your pc For
you taking the time to make a comment like that....well there must not be
much in your life.
-chad-

"Chad Michael Mallett" wrote in message
...
Since I was 17 I been a vegan. Since I was 10 I showed signs of mental
illnesses. Well I am 25 now. The last year I been really violent and out
of
control. I don't know what to do. I am thankful for my parents not calling
the police or hospital on me. I cracked my sisters door in half and it
knocked her shelf off the wall. It broke a lot of her collectibles. I am
scared. What if I hurt one of my family members? I get this power that is
uncontrollable. It's like I am a 100 times stronger and I feel no pain.
Now
a lot of this has to do with my illnesses. But is there anything I am
missing in my diet that I can get to eating that will help out? Thanks for
your help.

-chad-

You probably need some medication to help get the mood swings under control.
You need to talk to a psychiatrist about this. If you leave the problem
untreated you probably will hurt somebody, maybe even yourself. A
psychiatrist can help you find ways to control the problem.

-Rubystars

On Sun, 26 Sep 2004 07:08:27 -0500, "Chad Michael Mallett" wrote:

Since I was 17 I been a vegan. Since I was 10 I showed signs of mental
illnesses. Well I am 25 now. The last year I been really violent and out of
control. I don't know what to do. I am thankful for my parents not calling
the police or hospital on me.

They are apparently giving you a chance. It's up to you whether or not
they made a stupid one.

I cracked my sisters door in half and it
knocked her shelf off the wall. It broke a lot of her collectibles. I am
scared. What if I hurt one of my family members?

You have *already!* hurt them over and over again. The question is how
far you're going to let it go. You know unless you make a huge change
in your life somehow, you will end up physically hurting at least one person.
If it isn't enough to make you make the change then you will physically hurt
more people, and that much you are aware of.

I get this power that is
uncontrollable.

If you already really enjoy the pain you cause your family, it may be too
late as you're suggesting. If you don't enjoy it yet, then you need to find
someone who will help you get control before you get too bad.

It's like I am a 100 times stronger and I feel no pain. Now
a lot of this has to do with my illnesses. But is there anything I am
missing in my diet that I can get to eating that will help out? Thanks for
your help.

-chad-

It comes down to how much you are willing to hurt others. If you
continue, and continue to get worse, eventually something *will* be
done. Maybe it will be done by you...maybe by someone who has to
deal with people like you. It appears that so far you have the choice
of getting some good help AND doing your part too, or letting things
go to the point that you screw up the lives of people you should care
about and your own life as well. If you haven't yet done something
so bad that it will contaminate the rest of your life, be thankful for the
opportunity to avoid doing so and avoid it.

Well, since I was 20 I been on medication. So many different ones. I been
hospitalized twice. Thursday or Friday I cracked my sisters door in half and
it broke a lot of her collectibles. I am due to see the psychiatrist on the
7th of October. I have to drive 1 hour and a half one way to this one. I am
on my fourth psy doc. So I am trying to make this one work. He is knew. But
I seen the psych nurse before with the other doctor. So she is trying her
best to help me. She treats me for hour long sessions and tries everything
in her power to help me. I turned to being a vegetarian again and I use
products with animal testing and animal byproducts in it. I feel like shit
for doing it. I do. Sometimes I don't care. I cried tonight. I was thinking
over my life. I met my first real girlfriend about a month ago. And when I
was hospitalized for my suicidal plan. She dumped me. And never returns my
calls. She was also suicidal, a cutter, and mentally ill as well. I told her
that was totally uncalled for when I needed her the most she wasn't there
for me. She said she rather God then me. That she lives her life for God.
Not anyone else
I will always be alone. Plus I will be poor and a piece of trash to society
and my loving family. I thank you guys for responding to an offtopic post. I
just don't have anyone that understands me. I don't. I am all alone here. I
never cut my arms before. But sometimes I feel like I want to. I don't know.
I need to go vegan again. I am trying. I hate life.

--
Suicide is not Chosen; It happens when Pain Exceeds Resources for Coping
with Pain.

http://www.jokerstears.com

http://www.dacruestudios.com
wrote in message
...
On Sun, 26 Sep 2004 07:08:27 -0500, "Chad Michael Mallett"
wrote:

Since I was 17 I been a vegan. Since I was 10 I showed signs of mental
illnesses. Well I am 25 now. The last year I been really violent and out
of
control. I don't know what to do. I am thankful for my parents not
calling
the police or hospital on me.

They are apparently giving you a chance. It's up to you whether or not
they made a stupid one.

I cracked my sisters door in half and it
knocked her shelf off the wall. It broke a lot of her collectibles. I am
scared. What if I hurt one of my family members?

You have *already!* hurt them over and over again. The question is how
far you're going to let it go. You know unless you make a huge change
in your life somehow, you will end up physically hurting at least one
person.
If it isn't enough to make you make the change then you will physically
hurt
more people, and that much you are aware of.

I get this power that is
uncontrollable.

If you already really enjoy the pain you cause your family, it may be
too
late as you're suggesting. If you don't enjoy it yet, then you need to
find
someone who will help you get control before you get too bad.

It's like I am a 100 times stronger and I feel no pain. Now
a lot of this has to do with my illnesses. But is there anything I am
missing in my diet that I can get to eating that will help out? Thanks
for
your help.

-chad-

It comes down to how much you are willing to hurt others. If you
continue, and continue to get worse, eventually something *will* be
done. Maybe it will be done by you...maybe by someone who has to
deal with people like you. It appears that so far you have the choice
of getting some good help AND doing your part too, or letting things
go to the point that you screw up the lives of people you should care
about and your own life as well. If you haven't yet done something
so bad that it will contaminate the rest of your life, be thankful for the
opportunity to avoid doing so and avoid it.

On Sun, 26 Sep 2004 07:08:27 -0500, "Chad Michael Mallett"
wrote:

Since I was 17 I been a vegan. Since I was 10 I showed signs of mental
illnesses. Well I am 25 now. The last year I been really violent and out of
control. I don't know what to do. I am thankful for my parents not calling
the police or hospital on me. I cracked my sisters door in half and it
knocked her shelf off the wall. It broke a lot of her collectibles. I am
scared. What if I hurt one of my family members? I get this power that is
uncontrollable. It's like I am a 100 times stronger and I feel no pain. Now
a lot of this has to do with my illnesses. But is there anything I am
missing in my diet that I can get to eating that will help out? Thanks for
your help.


hey Chad

U think u got problems ???? U know _every_single_time i hear that
Smokey Robinson song 'tracks of my tears' i think of some personal
image my subconscious has created of_U_ & this has been happening 4
years now .

BTW do u get constipated ?

--
Suicide is not Chosen; It happens when Pain Exceeds Resources for Coping
with Pain.

http://www.jokerstears.com

http://www.dacruestudios.com
"BIG ONE" wrote in message
...
On Sun, 26 Sep 2004 07:08:27 -0500, "Chad Michael Mallett"
wrote:

Since I was 17 I been a vegan. Since I was 10 I showed signs of mental
illnesses. Well I am 25 now. The last year I been really violent and out
of
control. I don't know what to do. I am thankful for my parents not
calling
the police or hospital on me. I cracked my sisters door in half and it
knocked her shelf off the wall. It broke a lot of her collectibles. I am
scared. What if I hurt one of my family members? I get this power that is
uncontrollable. It's like I am a 100 times stronger and I feel no pain.
Now
a lot of this has to do with my illnesses. But is there anything I am
missing in my diet that I can get to eating that will help out? Thanks
for
your help.


hey Chad

U think u got problems ???? U know _every_single_time i hear that
Smokey Robinson song 'tracks of my tears' i think of some personal
image my subconscious has created of_U_ & this has been happening 4
years now .

BTW do u get constipated ?


Do you speak english?

--
Suicide is not Chosen; It happens when Pain Exceeds Resources for Coping
with Pain.

http://www.jokerstears.com

http://www.dacruestudios.com
"BIG ONE" wrote in message
...
On Sun, 26 Sep 2004 07:08:27 -0500, "Chad Michael Mallett"
wrote:

Since I was 17 I been a vegan. Since I was 10 I showed signs of mental
illnesses. Well I am 25 now. The last year I been really violent and out
of
control. I don't know what to do. I am thankful for my parents not
calling
the police or hospital on me. I cracked my sisters door in half and it
knocked her shelf off the wall. It broke a lot of her collectibles. I am
scared. What if I hurt one of my family members? I get this power that is
uncontrollable. It's like I am a 100 times stronger and I feel no pain.
Now
a lot of this has to do with my illnesses. But is there anything I am
missing in my diet that I can get to eating that will help out? Thanks
for
your help.


hey Chad

U think u got problems ???? U know _every_single_time i hear that
Smokey Robinson song 'tracks of my tears' i think of some personal
image my subconscious has created of_U_ & this has been happening 4
years now .

BTW do u get constipated ?


Do you speak english?

On Mon, 27 Sep 2004 23:48:23 -0500, "Chad Michael Mallett" wrote:

Well, since I was 20 I been on medication. So many different ones. I been
hospitalized twice. Thursday or Friday I cracked my sisters door in half and
it broke a lot of her collectibles. I am due to see the psychiatrist on the
7th of October. I have to drive 1 hour and a half one way to this one. I am
on my fourth psy doc. So I am trying to make this one work.

Good job man. Make it work.

He is knew. But
I seen the psych nurse before with the other doctor. So she is trying her
best to help me. She treats me for hour long sessions and tries everything
in her power to help me. I turned to being a vegetarian again and I use
products with animal testing and animal byproducts in it. I feel like shit
for doing it. I do. Sometimes I don't care. I cried tonight. I was thinking
over my life. I met my first real girlfriend about a month ago. And when I
was hospitalized for my suicidal plan. She dumped me. And never returns my
calls. She was also suicidal, a cutter, and mentally ill as well. I told her
that was totally uncalled for when I needed her the most she wasn't there
for me. She said she rather God then me. That she lives her life for God.
Not anyone else

It sounds like people have to do what they have to do to get through it.
If God exists, maybe he'll help you a bit too.

I will always be alone. Plus I will be poor and a piece of trash to society
and my loving family. I thank you guys for responding to an offtopic post. I
just don't have anyone that understands me. I don't. I am all alone here.

No one can know what you're going through or why...possibly you don't
understand it entirely yourself.

I
never cut my arms before. But sometimes I feel like I want to. I don't know.

Out of curiosity, what does cutting yourself do for a person?

I need to go vegan again. I am trying. I hate life.

Maybe you would agree that that particular outlook could have a significant
impact on other aspects of your life? It sounds like you've got a chemical
imbalance that causes you to be depressed, or feel bad in one way or more.
That sux, and I guess you have to deal with it. But on the brighter side, be
glad that you're living in an age where you get better treatment than you would
have in the not too distant past. Be glad that you have a house to live in, and
vehicles to carry you around, and all of the things that are easy to take for
granted. For the **vast!!** majority of time that man has been on Earth, people
lived in tents when they were lucky, had no decent medical care, couldn't
communicate with others any distance away, even the most educated didn't
know many of the things that you do, etc.... You can find a lot of reasons to
appreciate your position, as well as reasons to hate it.

On Mon, 27 Sep 2004 23:48:23 -0500, "Chad Michael Mallett" wrote:

Well, since I was 20 I been on medication. So many different ones. I been
hospitalized twice. Thursday or Friday I cracked my sisters door in half and
it broke a lot of her collectibles. I am due to see the psychiatrist on the
7th of October. I have to drive 1 hour and a half one way to this one. I am
on my fourth psy doc. So I am trying to make this one work.

Good job man. Make it work.

He is knew. But
I seen the psych nurse before with the other doctor. So she is trying her
best to help me. She treats me for hour long sessions and tries everything
in her power to help me. I turned to being a vegetarian again and I use
products with animal testing and animal byproducts in it. I feel like shit
for doing it. I do. Sometimes I don't care. I cried tonight. I was thinking
over my life. I met my first real girlfriend about a month ago. And when I
was hospitalized for my suicidal plan. She dumped me. And never returns my
calls. She was also suicidal, a cutter, and mentally ill as well. I told her
that was totally uncalled for when I needed her the most she wasn't there
for me. She said she rather God then me. That she lives her life for God.
Not anyone else

It sounds like people have to do what they have to do to get through it.
If God exists, maybe he'll help you a bit too.

I will always be alone. Plus I will be poor and a piece of trash to society
and my loving family. I thank you guys for responding to an offtopic post. I
just don't have anyone that understands me. I don't. I am all alone here.

No one can know what you're going through or why...possibly you don't
understand it entirely yourself.

I
never cut my arms before. But sometimes I feel like I want to. I don't know.

Out of curiosity, what does cutting yourself do for a person?

I need to go vegan again. I am trying. I hate life.

Maybe you would agree that that particular outlook could have a significant
impact on other aspects of your life? It sounds like you've got a chemical
imbalance that causes you to be depressed, or feel bad in one way or more.
That sux, and I guess you have to deal with it. But on the brighter side, be
glad that you're living in an age where you get better treatment than you would
have in the not too distant past. Be glad that you have a house to live in, and
vehicles to carry you around, and all of the things that are easy to take for
granted. For the **vast!!** majority of time that man has been on Earth, people
lived in tents when they were lucky, had no decent medical care, couldn't
communicate with others any distance away, even the most educated didn't
know many of the things that you do, etc.... You can find a lot of reasons to
appreciate your position, as well as reasons to hate it.

You are a good person DH, thanks. Well I don't know what a cutter goes
through, but sometimes when the pain is so bad inside you. You want to hurt
yourself to make greater pain so that the other pain isn't as bad. Psychical
pain can cover up bad emotional pain really easy.

--
Suicide is not Chosen; It happens when Pain Exceeds Resources for Coping
with Pain.

http://www.jokerstears.com

http://www.dacruestudios.com
wrote in message
...
On Mon, 27 Sep 2004 23:48:23 -0500, "Chad Michael Mallett"
wrote:

Well, since I was 20 I been on medication. So many different ones. I been
hospitalized twice. Thursday or Friday I cracked my sisters door in half
and
it broke a lot of her collectibles. I am due to see the psychiatrist on
the
7th of October. I have to drive 1 hour and a half one way to this one. I
am
on my fourth psy doc. So I am trying to make this one work.

Good job man. Make it work.

He is knew. But
I seen the psych nurse before with the other doctor. So she is trying her
best to help me. She treats me for hour long sessions and tries
everything
in her power to help me. I turned to being a vegetarian again and I use
products with animal testing and animal byproducts in it. I feel like
shit
for doing it. I do. Sometimes I don't care. I cried tonight. I was
thinking
over my life. I met my first real girlfriend about a month ago. And when
I
was hospitalized for my suicidal plan. She dumped me. And never returns
my
calls. She was also suicidal, a cutter, and mentally ill as well. I told
her
that was totally uncalled for when I needed her the most she wasn't there
for me. She said she rather God then me. That she lives her life for God.
Not anyone else

It sounds like people have to do what they have to do to get through
it.
If God exists, maybe he'll help you a bit too.

I will always be alone. Plus I will be poor and a piece of trash to
society
and my loving family. I thank you guys for responding to an offtopic
post. I
just don't have anyone that understands me. I don't. I am all alone here.

No one can know what you're going through or why...possibly you don't
understand it entirely yourself.

I
never cut my arms before. But sometimes I feel like I want to. I don't
know.

Out of curiosity, what does cutting yourself do for a person?

I need to go vegan again. I am trying. I hate life.

Maybe you would agree that that particular outlook could have a
significant
impact on other aspects of your life? It sounds like you've got a chemical
imbalance that causes you to be depressed, or feel bad in one way or more.
That sux, and I guess you have to deal with it. But on the brighter side,
be
glad that you're living in an age where you get better treatment than you
would
have in the not too distant past. Be glad that you have a house to live
in, and
vehicles to carry you around, and all of the things that are easy to take
for
granted. For the **vast!!** majority of time that man has been on Earth,
people
lived in tents when they were lucky, had no decent medical care, couldn't
communicate with others any distance away, even the most educated didn't
know many of the things that you do, etc.... You can find a lot of reasons
to
appreciate your position, as well as reasons to hate it.